Peace and Inspirational Friday

Today we went to Louisville for the biopsy on my leg. I have to admit that I was really, really scared. After registering, I was sent back by myself to prepare for the surgery. I laid in the hospital bed thinking "I can't hear God." I knew that it was my fault. My mind was so full of stress and fear that I couldn't hear Him. I silently begged Him to help me move the junk inside my head aside so I could let Him in. I needed Him.

It helped when they let Matthew sit with me for a few minutes. I held his hand close to me and as usual, he made me laugh and alleviated the tension I felt. The surgery went well but it did take me a while to wake up after the procedure. My blood pressure dipped very low so I had to wait around for a while before being released.

I'm home now and on crutches. I have a lot of pain. More than I had imagined. I am groggy from pain medicine but am determined to still be normal. I can't make the thousand trips I normally make up and down the stairs but don't want to be a big ball of mush either.

Through this process I have found so much love in my friends and family. I have learned that the people who stand in my corner when the chips are down not only fill up the corner but fill up the entire room!

I am so grateful for your kindness.

Your love and encouragement and care bring me PEACE.

Thank you.

Now for Inspirational Friday! I found this slide show and found it's words so appropriate for me, for today, and for the loved ones in my life. Please take a moment to watch it here. I have managed to stay positive during most of this journey but I did have my moments. The prospect of having bone cancer broke my spirits at times. I couldn't have made it through this without all of you and I love you.

I find out the results next Friday. Keep up your prayers! I know it is because of you that I have found the strength to make it through this.

If you read this blog, you know I count my blessings daily. I now fully realize how many blessings I have and how truly wonderful they are. I now know I hear God in so many ways. I may not think I can hear Him at times but I know he is always within me. He holds me and guides me. I am at PEACE.